Will I ever know the answer?
Yes, I know I will. Or I believe I will. It's just the "waiting until I know the answer" that I dislike. But who likes waiting? Honestly. I know that in the end I will be glad I waited on the Lord. For He truly knows best. And I DO want His will. We could get lost in a land of "if only." If only I was so sure of this or that.
Oh life. It is an interesting thing. I was reading my journal the other day, and one day I was writing about moving back to Ukraine. This was sometime in the past two years, while living in the States. I think it was back in 2008. And I don't think we were really planning on moving back here yet, but in the entry, I was talking about how going back to Ukraine would be awesome. But I didn't know if it would happen. And now here I am. Wow.
I think back to goodbyes I said to people when we moved back to the States. The last day of the Kiev National conference. That was a hard day.
Nate and Diana's wedding. Goodbyes to very close friends.
The morning we drove from Dnipro to Kiev. Wow, I was upset.
After spending a month in Finland, we came back through Kiev for one day and flew to the States. That one day, wow. I couldn't wait to be back in Ukraine, whether it was for one day or not. I just kept holding onto that one day. And the day we left, oh it hurt so much.
Our first Sunday in America, big church, I knew so few people, and I could barely hold back the tears.
And now I look, I love that church so much. And I am back in Ukraine, which I love as well of course.
To end it, Wait on the Lord. It is worth it. IT IS!
14 Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart: wait, I say, on the LORD. Psalm 27:14
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